the wrong side of the bed

I am dizzy right now. I feel like I have been dizzy a lot lately. I feel like I can't remember a day recently during which I have not felt at least a little dizzy. I started taking a medication a few weeks ago, but never really got to the full dosage, and then weaned myself off. Presumably this would no longer be messing with me since it was a good 2 or 3 weeks ago. I feel like I might have been dizzy even before that, though. When was the last time I wasn't dizzy?

I'm telling you this because I had this sudden urge, while washing my dishes a few minutes ago, to schedule an doctor's appointment. There is, I am sure, nothing wrong with me. It is just that having gone years without being properly diagnosed with epilepsy has made me nervous. Every tiny thing could be a symptom of something. Why am I dizzy? Why can't I sleep anymore? Why is the pinky finger on my left hand numb?

I am dangerously close to becoming a hypochondriac. I have been to the doctor unnecessarily a few times this year just to be safe. Maybe just one time. The other time was to the optometrist.

Still.

Labels: mental health