the wrong side of the bed

Monday, February 27, 2006

we are a strange breed

my nephew is a weird little guy. i was talking to my sister today. she told me that ezra wanted to read the (children's) dictionary to her. he read her the entries for the planets in order of distance from the sun. he read her the entries on each state in the order they were admitted to the union. he read her all of the letter K. he is supposed to read aloud to her (or my brother-in-law) for twenty minutes a day. he got bored with the dictionary.

now he is reading to my sister from a giant Office Depot catalogue that my mom gave him. he likes to read about office supplies, but not office equipment or furniture. can you imagine? he reads for twenty minutes straight from the catalogue. my sister has been begging him to read from the dictionary again.

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Friday, February 24, 2006

make it stop!!!!

college towns suck. there is nothing more horrible than neighbors who come home from bars and have stupid "parties" 15 minutes after bar time. arghh! it isn't even really a party. i can tell that it is just 4 or 5 drunk people listening missy elliot waaaay to loud. it is times like these that i wish i could just throw rocks at people. or maybe i could train an army of gnats to swarm at my command. gnats would be a pretty benign way to break something like this up.

or maybe snakes. or a jackal.

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Monday, February 20, 2006

second grumble

this is a different post because i didn't think the two related enough to post both. here's the thing: i am really tired of being on my medications. they cost money and they don't seem effective. lately i have been waking up in a fright about 20 to 30 minutes after i go to sleep. one of the medications i am on, i think, is causing this. i mean, i take it right before i lay my head down on my pillow. so, i want off of these meds. off of all of them. i am irritated because they don't seem to have any positive benefits. i am irritated because they cost money. i am irritated because the woman who prescribes them won't seem to let me stop taking them. i've got to see someone else. i've got to stop taking these things.

in the course of a day, this is what i might take. most days i take only one of the large round pills - sometimes just half of one. on bad days, i take them all. i want off of everything except the tiniest greenish pill. that's my birth control.

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grumble grumble

it is presidents' day, but the school where i am doing girl scouts (during a thirty minute lunch break!) is still open. i was hoping it wouldn't be. of course, i have planned nothing. still it shouldn't be difficult to throw something together, after all, i really only have 20 minutes of time in which the girls could conceivably be doing an activity.

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Saturday, February 18, 2006

x-files

now, i'm not suggesting a conspiracy or anything, but does anyone else think it is weird that both cabell and jeff have had horrible reactions to medications this week? i mean, i've never known either of them to be particularly prone to hives for no reason. and this week both of them have been sick. huh.

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Thursday, February 16, 2006

fighting for survival is such a boring battle*

boring, but also losing.
here is why i didn't just curl up in the snow to die this morning:

a handful of little girls
85 undergrads who need to understand gender

here is the first thing i looked at when i got to school:

this is my nephew the first time he saw snow. when he touched it, he reacted like it was some kind of horrible slime.

*thank you also to jeff lewis, who kept me company as i walked to school this morning.

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Tuesday, February 14, 2006

remember?

i must have been 20 years old, so i guess 9 years ago on this date, i got my eyebrow pierced. 8 years ago on this date, i think i took the eyebrow ring out.

happy valentine's day.

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Monday, February 13, 2006

it is okay to ask for help

as you all know, i am kind of a nutjob. yeah, crazy, but not like a fox. maybe i'm crazy like, i don't know, a possum. and possums make me want to puke. but, i don't want to be like this forever, despite my resistance to change, so i have been taking gobs of meds and going to therapy left and right.

i am currently doing group therapy. for tomorrow, i am supposed to come up with three affirmations. corny as hell, right? supposedly it works. the problem for me is that i am really negative, so the affirmations have to have a ring of truth even for me. this is hard, given that i am such a cynic and i am full of self loathing. what to do? can you all help me come up with some positive affirmations about myself that i can say without immediately thinking of counter examples?

so far i have:

i can generally drink liquids without them going down my windpipe
i am able to match my clothes nicely

i don't know, i think i am supposed to be using a particular form for my affirmations (according to the therapist who leads my group), but i can't remember the structure. i think it might be "i am" statements. i think they are supposed to be things like "i am calm." but, see, i'm not calm. i know that i am supposed to read those and then sort of become them, but all i do when i see a statement like that is think about how NOT CALM i am.

so, can you give me suggestions?

(the possum above is playing dead. good strategy?)

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i'm awake

just thought you should know. i am not happy about it, believe you me.

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Friday, February 10, 2006

jon wants me to post pictures from the dinner party this saturday

yeah, like jon even reads my blog.

update: sean thinks i should tell you the theme of the party. isn't it obvious? "yummy, yummy foodz."

update 2: okay, i lied. the theme was "gross stuff from old cookbooks."

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Wednesday, February 08, 2006

the more you know

from the UW student organization entry about social fraternities and sororities:

"Social fraternities and sororities offer membership to students without regard to a field of study or class year, and typically have a minimum grade requirement. The term "social" in social fraternity and social sorority refers to social development. The original intent of these organizations when they began in the 18th Century was to assist students to become "socialized," that is, directed, with proper consideration of one's future responsibilities as a citizen in society. The individual and the organization's members base membership on mutual choice. Social fraternities and sororities are self-governing and self-supporting organizations."

really?

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Sunday, February 05, 2006

i don't get it

You Are 32% Abnormal

You are at low risk for being a psychopath. It is unlikely that you have no soul.

You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

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Friday, February 03, 2006

proof that i know me better than you do

despite sean's insistence to the contrary, i do not like architecture. in fact, i often find it annoying. for exammple, i am really beginning to hate the sick jerks that designed all of the buildings on campus. could at least one building start on the first floor and go to the top without any major screw-ups? i do not want to have to find the one staircase out of seven that will get me to the part of the third floor of bascom where the AV key guy lives. i especially don't want to walk up three flights of stairs, wander around the third floor for a few minutes before finally finding a sign that indicates that the 373 can't be reached from the main part of the third floor. following that, i don't want to have to guess where the right stairs are and then walk up those, grab a stinking key, and then walk down again. i guess i should at least be greatful that, upon returning to my eighth floor office in the sewell building i only had to go up two flights because the main entrance is on the sixth floor.

so, tell hell with you, sean. i really do just want all buildings to be very straightforward rectangular prisms.

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Thursday, February 02, 2006

hungry, hungry hippo

good god! lately i cannot seem to get enough foods in me. all of this talk of pocky is making me sooooooo hungry. here are some more pocky pictures for you: